Serendipity

There's this guy I got to know, months back. He happens to be a friend of a friend and I've seen his pictures on facebook before. And I've seen and also correctly deduce that he was dating this guy from the pictures. And I've also pretty much correctly deduce the problems they were having. (I deserve that Bsc in psychology)

Moving on a month or 2 from that, he dropped me a mail on some online profile. And so we've chatter virtually, He's a nice person but sometimes he's just too literal and rigid. But he's really sweet, he'll drop smses to encourage you along the week. Something I used to do, or rather do much less frequently these days.

And so I replied 1 of those on Thursday and the sms conversation went along the lines of we're always suppose to meet but never did. And he concluded the time wasn't ripe. (yes, ripe.)

And how he had this friend who he's been in contact with but never met till 4 years later. And today, I saw him in the train! Walked in, saw 2 seats, 1 on the left side, 1 on the right. No idea why but I took the right instead of the left, if I had took the left I would have sat next to him. But if I had sat next to him, me being me, might not have noticed him.

He was engross on the phone, so he didn’t notice me. Looked at him for a bit, nope, didn’t work. And since I’m really bad at recognizing people, I won’t have gone up to him as well, nor would I have continue staring. So it got a bit uncomfortable after a while. Thankfully the train got crowded and we were blocked.

In any case, I texted him thereafter. And it was nice talking to him. Seeing him physically for the first time. Well, he’s cute but not conventionally so. And his physique is not too bad at all. So he called me back. And I thought I’ve seen and heard everything before. He called to explained why he was so engross in his conversation, which ½ the carriage could prolly hear. And I got the clearance from him to talk about it.

I’ve heard of con boys. But this has to be the best job to date. The phone conversation was about a guy he knows. That guy's bf in desperation called him. At 23, this guy managed to con a condo (legal papers done to transfer it to his name) by being with a guy for 2 years, while concurrently having/conning other people as well. He’s good, for his age, he’s got lots of potential and a long way to go. Hopefully though, Karma doesn’t catch up with him 1st.

Ex-lover Is Dead

God that was strange to see you again

Introduced by a friend of a friend

Smiled and said 'yes I think we've met before'

In that instant it started to pour,

Captured a taxi despite all the rain

We drove in silence across point champlain

And all of the time you thought I was sad

I was trying to remember your name…

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin

Tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in

Now you're outside me

You see all the beauty

Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you lose

I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose

I'll write you a postcard

I'll send you the news

From a house down the road from real love…

Live through this, and you won't look back…

Live through this, and you won't look back…

Live through this, and you won't look back…

There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave

You were what I wanted

I gave what I gave

I'm not sorry I met you

I'm not sorry it's over

I'm not sorry there's nothing to say

I'm not sorry there's nothing to say...

Calendar Girl

If I am lost for a day; try to find me

But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me

All of the things that I thought were so easy

Just got harder and harder each day

December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right

While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home

Who waits up for me all through the night

Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive

Calendar Girl who's in love with the world Stay alive

I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do

And when I awoke I was sure it was true

I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky

And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die

But I can't live forever,I can't always be

One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea

The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross

And I'll laugh about all that we've lost

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive

Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive

January, February, March, April, May I'm alive

June, July, August, September,October I'm alive

November, December, you all through the winter, I'm alive

I'm alive

Jitters

It's been the 3rd, 4th? day of feeling jittery, where i get this prickly feeling on my feet mostly, and hands and the stomach churns a little, not in an upset way but not excatly a butterflies in stomach way either. Somewhat a hybrid i guess.

and yes i think its work.

Clothes maketh the man?

Could a gay man, or urbansexual, or metro be so narstically body obsessed but care less for the clothes that wrap the beautiful body?

I find that quite ironic.

Birthdays

I tend to put emphasize on birthdays, maybe a tad too much than neccessary. It's suppose to be a celebration with people who mean something to you. Least that's how I see it, so likewise unless the person means enough to me, it'll not warrant my attendence.

Cancer traits

So i was told, Cancerians tend to repeat themselves on the advise, which are really practical and sensible, they dish out. I wonder why this is so.

a) they suck at bringing their point/advice across
b) people just don't listen/get it
c) they're really naggy

Fashionlista

I was surprise when i got word about it. That my reputation precedes me. Well to start off, I didn't even know i had a reputation. I try to be as low key as 1 can be. The less people know me, the less they'll find me for stuff/things.

Within my section, Ii'm known to be fashion forward. Which isn't a hard thing to do, being aj and having only 1 other male colleague, whose surname pek says a lot about his style.

Sounding arragont, guys on my floor, don't bother to dress up. so it's an easy win. but that said, i don't really think I top notch either. Got a limited wardrobe of clothes. Most days, I don't even bother with my hair.

So what actually happened was that I had to do a presentation to the sales managers in the other building of some online portal with regards to underwriting portion. And they got to know about my dressing even before I went there. I've no idea how they got word and I'm curious as well.

Hopefully I don't come across as a someone with stlye but no brains.

M&A

mergers and acquisitations is the game for today.

Totally unprecedent, what they're going to try is to merge group and individual business into 1 entity. Guess in times like these, anything is possible.

So what will happen eventually is that everyone will be doing every different line of product. Its good in the sense that there's increase exposure. With this, I can say i'm underwriting every line of business, individual life, individual health, group life and health, policy servicing underwriting.

The concern comes in with regards to limits. underwriting limits determine the value of the underwriter. Its like in an airline, the bigger the plane you fly the more senior you are.

Now with the merger, there's cause for concern that the group people will be marginalize. Have always been under the impression that individual underwriters are more valued than group ones. So then what if we get the lower limits compare to them? That'll totally kill us.

Work induce weight loss

Been loosing weight lately, never thought that would happen but yes it can.
Not sure if this is a worrying sign. but actually deamt that i got an sms on the acceptance rate of the various products that we're underwriting!

to elaborate, it's the stats of the cases we do on a daily basis and the outcome of them, standard, sub standard, decline, postpone. And there's a formula to calculate the acceptance rate and it's populated into a chart. I had to do all those.

And now i'm dreaming i'm recieveing smses on those!

Birthday present came early

Got a nice surprise from Anders, Alvin and Nicholas. A BV wally! retail price? $640.

Haha, call me superficial. But if money was a way to value a friendship, then i feel i'm worth lots! But on a serous note, its the generousity that touches me. It's the affirmation that they know i won't short change them that means a lot more.

Overpaid

I can't believe i spent so much on her for an overseas present trip. $40!
Hell no, she ain't worth so much! Wad was i thinking to even consider spending that amount.
I'm definately going to be short changed for a loooong time to come.

Strip:Emotional accessory.

emotional accessory by jeremyseth

The bank up plan

They say that you need to have 1/2 year of your salary (i presume as liquid assets) and I'm def not there. Its not extremely worrying but the realization that I'm not gettin any younger, does put a bit of pressure to get there fast.

I know nuts about share gambling, about making a quick buck. Think it'll be too jittery for me to know that i might lose 10K. So there's little avenue to generate additional revenue.

Loans to friends are hardly profitable, I actually miss out on the 0.25% interest rate P.A.

In less than 7 years, I can get a HDB flat. Renovations by then will (by my standards) easily put me back by 50K, if not more.

Then if there's a car, there's a car loan.

The financial burden will get tougher, and that's assuming that family is in pink of health and there's no medical bills on top of that.

Under such intense pressure, relief is required. Time to do retail threapy. haha. (that's really a joke)