Getting older...

I guess I'm thankful for memory laspes. I can't remember how i felt or what i felt about during this period last year. Generally feedback is that I get moody.

Has it got better this year? I'm not sure. I know I didn't come out with a present list, that i use to do and it hasn't really sink in that it's less than 7 days away. Need a haircut.

Have yet to plan my first trip out alone. Haven travelled overseas alone for a holiday before. Don't really know how it'll feel it. I hope I won't feel bored. I know I feel bored walking orchard alone and can't wait to get home.

Maybe it's pathetic to run away from bad birthday dinners. But twice a row, I guess is good enough for me to want avoid it altogether now. Pay 268 just to escape it, does sound a little pathetic. Perhaps I should give it a twist, an oxymoron and have macdonals there by myself.

Maybe a quarter life crisis would mean, wondering how you're going to get enough to life comfortable (my standards of comfortable ain't excatly low), how to save enough for that pad of yours, be it a HDB,Private. How to pay the bills, yet have enough for a rainy day. Investments. Gosh, I feel adult? Everything requires money, thus the need to climb the corporate ladder, yet up each rug means twice the stress level. Self doubt comes in and you wonder if you're really pathetic and just can't handle stress or you're just not working hard enough. Next question you'll ask if it's all worth it? All the slogging for something a bit better. And maybe a few years down the road you realize you don't even need those. It was all society/peer pressure to achieve.

And you get so use to being alone, that feeling gets a bit difficult. Everyone's busy with their own plans anyway. Being alone isn't that hard or miserable after all. There's the endless freedom to do anything and everything or nothing at all. Quite ironic then, when i got a sms asking if things have gotten so bad, when the other party had found alternatives to things we use to do. Defination of BFF, go figure!